Where have I gone?

Its been very scary and frightening, these last few weeks. I don't feel like myself all the time any more I have trouble concentrating and its very frustrating, I'm forgetting things and just don't feel like myself. I'm normally very organized in my head and able to focus on and plan lots of different things and now focusing on just one thing at a time takes a lot of effort. Not to mention I'm sore all the time, and not sleeping well. I've been missing school and having trouble getting assignments in on time. At least I've been able to start crocheting again, the relief of having a name to put to my rotten feeling has made me feel like doing things I enjoy again. I haven't been able to start writing again, I just don't have the focus or the dedication yet. Im hoping my adjusted medication will help me be able to focus on school again, I love my program and have dreamed of being an interpreter for years and really want to succeed in this. I'm lucky to have supportive teachers and friends helping me through this and am hoping to be able to find myself again soon. But I thought I would share some pictures of my latest crochet project, its been really nice to be able to get back to it and I've got a whole pile of patterns to work on that I've been building up in the hopes of finding my drive again! I made the mouse from the book "If You Give a Mouse a Cookie" and also an assortment of cute animals!

~Kitty

Where have I gone?

News

So as all of you readers of my blog know I've been sick for a while and I finally have an answer. I have fibromyalgia and have been living with it for a week now, well having a name for it. I've had it for much longer about 2 or so years now. It explains all of my problems and pain and means that my soreness is not in my head. All my muscle aches and pains, my spasms and my tiredness all the mind fogs. I got diagnosed after I had a breakdown and rushed myself to the doctor because i was frightened by how much i seemed to be loosing track of things and forgetting and not being able to focus after i missed some meetings for a presentation and then the presentation itself. Most of my group was worried for me one was and is still overly mad because she thinks I am giving excuses. But I have no time to care about her being petty. My mind seems to be getting better with the meds they gave me and i am waiting on a specialist appointment to confirm the diagnosis. Its really awsome to have a name to whats wrong with me, to know why i am sick and always feeling icky to have a reason but now i get to deal with all the things that come with the diagnosis but im happy. Its still wired to but its nice to be able to treat it.

This is a link for anyone who is interested in more info. Its lumped in wiht chronic fatiuge and pain conditions and causes mind fogs that make me feel like i am swiming thru cotton wool in my head and they make me forgetful. Its herditary (my mother has it) and it most common in women. http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/fibromyalgia/DS00079

The most important thing for me to remember is that I have fibro, it does not have me :)

~Kitty