A little update :)

So there's a lot going on, I'm back to school, at a new job and trying to find a balance in which to live. My parents are constantly telling me I'm a child and telling me to be an adult. They want me to go out and have a life, not happy that I am happy to sit at home and read. It is complicated to fit into society when I feel so round-peg-in-a-square-hole. I'm happy to be at a good job where everyone is friendly and the hours are steady, I'm glad to be pursuing my life's dream of working towards being an interpreter and I like the majority of my school mates and yet, I do feel a hole in my life that my little George, with all his cuddles and purring cannot fill. I'm nearly 20. I made myself a goal this year that I would sorta like to have my first date before I hit the big 2-0. I would love to find someone to share my ideas and passions with, to go to the museums and zoos and bowling and all the other random things I want to share with someone. Almost everyone I know or have met has been dating since they were young. I don't really envy them, I've never yearned to go through men like peanuts or any other snack food but shouldn't there have been someone some where who could have fit with? I don't crave a guy, I'm not desperate or looking frantically I've seen what it does through many friends who have the issue of being alone and rush into relationships and into failure, I need to find someone who makes me think and smile and who respects my well "old timey feel" for the premarital mambo.I think my parents set me back a litte, they met at 16/17 and have been together ever since so, in my mind I thought I'd be with the man I was going to marry by now I would be married by 22/23 and would be having my first baby soon. Nope. I don't want to be an older mother so I set myself a date and its funny how this is precieved. Some people see me as a liberated, open minded women others see me as ruinging my life and that of the child I would have. If I am not married or close to it by the time I'm 28 I've deiceded I've going to have a turkey baster baby (or IF baby). I would prefer to be married, but what is life without a backup plan? For now I simply try to float along my day and work through what I need to work through and hope for that movie moment when i reach for that book on the book shelf or say that's my favorite blank and someone one esle will say me too! lets go to lunch! Its a silly school girl romance, but every girl wants one....
Always,
~Kitty