It is very strange to think, and this is the time of year that this always happens to me, that so much has happened and that i have come so far. It is now that i begin to think: 5 years ago i was in egypt and madly in love. It's a simple statment. strange to think that 5 years ago i was 14 and longing away on a small cruse ship on the nile for a love that would never be returned that none the less drove my existance. And now, when the rain falls and i allow myself to drift into memories and hold myself strong without tears i look back and feel helpless. how strange. Its odd to no longer be tied down by such a thing and to be free to roam and lend my heart to what ever fancy it feels to follow and then i wonder if the love is not returned wasnt i really only tied down by myself? and as needlessly as it may have been i bloomed and flourshed in every raincloud and soggy poem that dripped from my own knots...hmm. i never promised my rants would make sense.....but i do think i miss being in a love, even one sided as it was...
-Kitty.